I suppose this ain't gonna be a happy one. But I just need to get my thoughts on somewhere. It feels like it doesn't matter how hard I try to make a friend, or even just get close to someone. There's always people who will be more important to them, will be better friends. I'm not even sure there is someone out there who has the same needs that I have.

I'm so done with lies and half truths! I wish I could just open up to someone without the consequences of them being scared away. And I really wish for a friend who would adore me the same way. But at this moment that just seems impossible.

There is two people talking to me right now, trying to ... well, I dunno what they're trying really. But it's somehow helping. *sigh* I feel so stupid and worthless.